Monday, September 2, 2013

It Has To Start Somewhere

Every journey in life has a beginning and an end.  Sometimes we can veer off course, take the wrong path, or fall in a ditch.  Lucky for us we get to make the choice in whether we continue to go in the wrong direction or wallow in the ditch.  And I think, from time to time, we're allowed to wallow a bit before finding the courage and strength to pick ourselves up, and move forward.

With that said, I've been wallowing for far too long.  And, I've strayed from the journey.  This weight loss journey is a life long one for me and I know that I will always struggle.  If you add in a lot of emotional stress into the mix, it makes the struggle that much more difficult.  I would love to say that the emotional stress hasn't gotten the best of me, it has.

The first step in getting back on track *I think* is realizing you're going down that path again.  The path that takes you down the road to 'ruin'.  It's the path that you've vowed to never go down again and yet, here you are in the middle of it, knowingly walking it.  Now is the time!

The second step in getting back on track is to keep things real.  It's almost as if you're starting over, but not from the very beginning, just mid journey.  Baby steps here people.  Baby steps.  If you've fallen off as long as I have *about a month*, you'll need to ease yourself back into it *again, just my perspective*.  If I think too much about all that goes into getting myself back on track, it can be overwhelming.  Maybe it won't be.  If you've been at it a long time, it could just be second nature without much thought having to go into it.  It does feel a bit like that for me.

Lastly, remember the reasons you started this journey in the first place.  I didn't like being the 'fat girl'.  I wanted to be healthy.  I wanted to be able to do things I'd never done before.  And if I go back to where I was, I'll lose all of that.

It's not too late.  Stop in the path that you're taking yourself down.  Head up and keep going!

Friday, August 23, 2013

One Year

It's officially been a year since I started running.  There are a lot of things that I have learned.

My top 10 things I've learned about running this past year:
  1. It doesn't matter how fast you are, it matters that you've gotten your butt out the door.
  2. Give yourself something to work towards...a goal.
  3. Make your goal attainable.
  4. For goodness sakes...breathe.  After doing my half marathon, my silly breathing technique didn't seem so silly to me.  I could hear people coming up behind me that were breathing in ways that seemed silly, but I'm sure worked for them.  I might have thought a couple people were dying in need of a water break, but they kept running.
  5. If people pass you, who cares?  Who am I kidding?  I care!  Yes, it pained me to have people pass me, especially people who were older than me, but I had to remind myself that I was in it for me.  Maybe at some point in their lives, they started out like me.  Or maybe, they never experienced starting this running business in their mid 30s, so they have no idea where I've come from.  Either way, finishing, no matter how I got there, was #1.
  6. Find your happy place.  This may include a nice trail where you live.  It may include music.  For me, it's a little of both sometimes.  For my half, I started out with music and at some point *probably around the half way point* I went unplugged.  It was a great decision.
  7. Be comfortable.  Isn't that the same as your happy place?  Nope.  You need to make sure that you have good fitting sneakers, you're wearing clothes that keep you cool *or in the winter...warm!*, and clothes that are easy to run/breathe in.  If you're uncomfortable while you're running, it will be miserable.
  8. Don't be afraid of the elements.  Okay, well if there is extreme weather, then be afraid of the elements.  But, if it's snowy or rainy...give it a go.  Weather conditions won't always be perfect and if you allow them to get in the way, then you're giving yourself an excuse to not go out the door.
  9. If something seems hard, it may very well be.  Try it again.  Which leads me to #10...
  10. Don't give up!  Just because it's hard, doesn't mean that you should give up on it.  Keep working on it and you'll get your groove!
One last thought on this whole running business...have fun!  If nothing else, be able to laugh at yourself.  If you fall...pick yourself back up, dust yourself off and keep going *unless you're seriously injured!!!*  Life is too short to live wondering if you could have done a 5k.  No one can ever fault you for getting out there and making you a healthier you!

Wednesday, August 21, 2013

13 for '13--A Review

Here it is, now August and I'm just getting back around to do a little review.  Terrible.  Life is all about getting in my way right now.  Or, I'm getting in my own way.  Or something.

My original list *I'll add where I'm at with each in parenthesis*:

  1. Continue to maintain my goal weight.  And, I need to give myself a 5 pound buffer even though it pains me to say so...I need that.  It's more about being up 5 pounds rather than down 5.  (Sadly, I'm struggling.  With going home for a month, my weight has increased.  I know that it has and I am slowly getting back in the saddle.  I need to do it for me and no one else.)
  2. I want to keep remain dedicated no matter what!  It's hard, but I enjoy it far more than I ever thought I would.  (Running is my buddy.  It's my frustration release.  Even with my knee problem, as long as I'm not trying to come down a hill, I'm okay.  I had a great run yesterday!)
  3. I want to spend time with my hubby at night at least once a week *I guess I should clue him in on this too, huh?*  I just bought Battleship *the game* for he and I to play.  We've also played Othello recently.  This is an adjustment over this year's goal of going on a date night 1x per month.  (Hmm, this has really lacked.  We have played canasta recently, so I guess something is better than nothing.)
  4. Take time for myself.  I really need to continue to do this for myself.  I need to be vocal about it too.  I'm hoping that I can do this once every other week or so.  Hoping to.  (This is still a work in progress.  I often don't know when I truly need this time and I often shrug it off.  Don't we all?)
  5. Spend less time on the computer.  I typically spend some time on the computer in the morning while I drink my coffee/tea; some time while I eat lunch and then again after dinner.  The goal?  I need to limit it a bit more.  I'm going to set the timer and spend no more than a half hour in the morning and at lunch.  Then I can spend a bit more time on the computer after the girls go to bed.  (I can tell you that this has dropped a crazy amount in the last week.  I've been *mostly* facebook free with the exception of checking on a few friends via my hubby's account.)
  6. Do more crafty things with my girls.  I did quite a few things with them just before Christmas and I'd like to keep doing fun things with them.  They loved it!  (This has taken a wee break since things have been busy.  We'll need to get back into that now that fall is upon us.)
  7. Bake more with the girls.  They enjoy the baked goods that I make, so I'd like them to help more in the kitchen.  (Also, the heat of summer...doesn't exactly lend itself to lots of baking.  Again, fall is upon us and I'm looking forward to doing more.)
  8. Write one letter/card by hand a month.  I am modifying this one from this year as well.  A handwritten note can make someone's day so much better.  Have you tried it recently? *no I don't mean a personal e-mail either!!*  (I am doing really well with this.  It means a lot to me to get these notes out in the mail.  It probably means more to the people who receive them.)
  9. Continue taking my girls outside to do things like sledding, bike riding, and walking.  I have a blast too.  We've gone sledding several times already.  We just love it!  (We spent a crazy amount of time outside while we were home in NY.  If you could see how tan my girls are, you'd know it was true!  We even got to spend a day at the beach; this is a luxury we don't have here.)
  10. Express my feelings better with my friends, husband and girls.  *A repeat from this year.*  (Failing.)
  11. Read at least 3 books this next year.  I enjoy it...I need to do it for myself.  I need to make time for it.  (Also failing on this even though I have a couple of books fired up and ready to go.)
  12. Encourage others who are continuing their journey or starting a new journey.  It's a hard road, but one that is worth it!  (I hope I'm doing that and if I'm not...kick me in the pants so that I can do it in return!)
  13. Laugh at myself, laugh at my children and roll my eyes at my husband *another adjustment from one for this year.*  (I think I have the rolling my eyes at my husband down quite well.  Laughing at my children?  Still needs improvement.)
 So, that's where I'm at.  Life continues to throw curve balls.  And, I'm on a roller in which I'm yelling, "Please let me off!  I'm going to be sick!"  Except, no one hears me.

Don't give up friends.  I haven't, but sometimes we lose our way for a bit and need to fight, crawl, get back to where we need to be.

Tuesday, August 20, 2013

Half Marathon

Hi dear friends near and far.  It has been a long summer.  A busy one for sure!  We spent a month visiting family, friends and going to Ohio to visit more friends.  It was fantastic!  One unfortunate event?  I managed to exercise for a little over a week, but my right hamstring muscle started to seize on me.  It was painful.  And, while I stretched it, it didn't want to let go.  I babied it, but by doing that, caused my quad to get grumpy too.  So, I did some bike riding and surprisingly had some really great rides!  I even went on a bike ride with my dad.  He kiddingly asked if I needed him to bring the 'tow rope' with him.  I said no. :)  We logged a 13 mile ride together!

We came home, and I ran a couple of times.  Then, I took that Friday off and took on my first half marathon that Saturday (August 10th).  My plan going in was to run as much as I could.  I also planned to start with the walkers at 6am because I just didn't know what to expect.  Friday evening, I picked up my 'race' packet.  I knew full well that this wasn't a 'race' for me, but a scenic route that I had never taken before.  After getting home, I organized all of my gear for the morning.

Surprisingly, I slept fairly well.  I got up at 4:30, had a little something to eat, and as I got ready to put my chest strap with heart rate monitor on, my watch battery died!  Ugh!  Thankfully I had a back up *the kind where you put your fingers on the sensors.*  Eh, it would work.  I got into 'town' for my 'race' around 5:35-5:40 which gave me a few minutes to throw on some sunscreen and go to the bathroom one last time.  We were to hear a speech from the race director at 5:45.

While we stood there, the 'trackers' recorded our bibs into their 'computers' and the director talked.  He counted us down to 6 and we were off.  I started like I normally do, with my 5 minute brisk walk.  Then I turned it over to running: 3 minutes on and 2 minutes walking.  That was fine until I really hit the trail.  It was a very steep trail.  According to my map, it was only a 700ish foot gain overall, but it was enough to kick my pants.

With that said, I walked quite a bit.  When it leveled out, I ran.  But even in places where it had 'leveled out', it wasn't completely runable *is that even a word?*  There were large rocks in the path which made it difficult to actually run.  When I finally felt like I had gotten in my groove *around 9 1/2 miles oddly enough*, I was going down a small knoll *hill?* and my left knee started to give out.  All I could think of was, really??  I had stopped a couple of times to stretch, but now my knee was giving me grief.  It wasn't my right hamstring which had been giving me problems since being in NY.  It was my left knee.  Argh!!!

From there on out, I stopped making any attempt to run.  I was there to enjoy the views.  And they were magnificent!  At mile 11ish, an older lady passed me who had been walking the entire time.  As she passed me, she says, "It's all down hill.  It's burning up the quads!!!"  Ha!  At that moment, my quads were the least of my worries.  My knee didn't like going down hill.  A volunteer saw me around that point too and asked if I was okay and if I was in the half.  I told him that I was supposed to be running, but was definitely walking at that point.  He asked if I was okay and I told him that my knee was sore, but that I was going to make it.

I was going to make it!  I might crawl across that finish line, but I was going to finish!

I was getting close and I was able to hear the cheers of the finish line.  It was just me and my victory.  No one to give me that last boost.  But, I finished.  Time doesn't matter at this point, because I set a goal and accomplished it.

A couple of days after the 'race', I checked back in to see if they had posted the results and they had.

I didn't finish last.

Sunday, June 2, 2013

Heartfelt Ramblings

Let me first say that this is a non-weight loss post.  It may also get a bit preachy, so back away now if you're afraid.  I laid in bed last night thinking about this and where I could write this particular post.  Well, maybe it does have a little baring on weight, but we'll see how it goes.

Women are sensitive creatures.  We may go through a lot of life experiences that cause us to become 'turtle like'.  Ya know, hard on the outside and soft on the inside.  With that said, men are very much the same, but they tend to be 'turtle like' from the get go.  It's almost engrained in them from the time they are born.  They aren't supposed to reveal their hurts or wear their feelings on their sleeves.

When we choose to love someone, we have to take the good with the bad.  This includes all of the baggage from past experiences and our turtle like appearance.  If our love is based solely on appearance, and our appearances change, sometimes for the bad, then the relationship could end quickly.  If it's not, then you'll love each other no matter the shape or size your significant other may become.  No matter the appearance, love needs to be shown and felt by both sides.

A life long commitment to love one another is hard work.  Very hard.  If it were easy, the divorce rate wouldn't be sitting somewhere at or near 50% here in the United States.  We also live in a 'disposable' society.  If we don't like something, we get rid of it.  Old?  Pitch it.  Wrong color?  Chuck it *or if it's me and I have a receipt, exchange it!*  Do you see where I'm going with this?  If the relationship has become too hard, be done with it.  Walk away.

There are bound to be ups and downs.  And when I say downs, I'm talking digging around in the trenches, feeling like there is no way to come up for air, and possibly losing all sense of time.  You may end up hurting each other.  Even when there are apologies, the hurts may linger.  And linger.  And linger.  But, if you truly love each other and you are truly sorry, then there is a smidge of hope that life is worth living...together.  Am I saying that there are some hurts that aren't beyond the limits of a relationship?  That the hurt/trust that has been broken is impossible to get past?  Sometimes.  But again, I believe in love.  The kind that can see past them.  The unconditional kind.  The kind that loves you no matter what you look like...size 26 *yep, I was there once*...wild hair from getting up out of bed...sweatpants, t-shirt.  You get the picture.

And as our relationships change, and they will, love grows and changes too.  Add in babies and housework, yard work, running kids here and there...oh the list could be endless.  You still love each other for who they are, not for what they did or did not accomplish that day.  I can tell you that there are days when my hubby comes home from work and making sure that our girls didn't kill each other, were fed, were sparkling clean happy, and that the house was still standing was all that I could muster.  I look at him and say, "Sorry."  He shakes his head and says, "It's okay.  I'm not worried about it."

Love also doesn't look at how we did a particular 'job' around the house.  *I had to learn this SO early in our marriage.  I didn't realize how anal retentive I was about some things, like how I did laundry, loaded the dishwasher or doing the dishes, or how some things were cleaned...*  If my hubby does a job around the house, even if it's not the way I would have done it *and I still grumble about it in my head*, I am grateful that he did it.  One less thing I have to do!

All of this to is work.  It can hurt, but it is also amazing.  It brings endless joy, laughter, and encouragement.  Love is for making each other better people.  Someone once said that people are given to us to act like sandpaper in our lives.

Love is the sandpaper that refines us into who we truly are, beneath that hard turtle shell.

Saturday, May 4, 2013

Stepping Out Of Your Comfort Zone

If anyone knows me and knows me fairly well, I'm a comfort gal.  I like to stay in my: box, bubble, name it...I'm in it!  I like routine, the familiar, and knowing what to expect.  Does this sound at all like you?  It doesn't?  Carry on.  If it does, read on.

Almost 9 months ago, I made this huge decision to start the C25K program.  You can see my original post about that here.  Talk about stepping out of your comfort zone!!  Running is a leap out of my comfort zone and one that I never anticipated taking.  At some point after finishing the C25K program, I decided to keep going and piggy back the C210K *it basically picks up where the 5k left off.*  After completing that, I did a program called Run For Fat Loss *R4FL*.  I completed that in January *I think.*  I kind of bounced around a bit after that.  I wasn't really sure what I wanted to do with my running.

At the beginning of March, I checked out the ipod app for a half marathon trainer by the same creators of the 5k and 10k app that I had so enjoyed.  It really seemed like it was up my alley.  It was the same set up using intervals to complete your half marathon.  Yes!!  I begged sweetly asked my hubby to let me get the app so that I could start training.  He, without hesitation, said yes.  Yay!

As I have been on this journey, I've learned new things about running.  I have read up on rhythmic breathing which has helped me tremendously.  A few friends have given me the ins and outs of 'fueling' while on longer runs *someone said to me today, "Isn't fueling for cars?" We both laughed, but there is certainly more to it than that.*  And two big things happened in regards to my running:  1) I signed up for a 5k and 2) I signed up for a half marathon.

If you are unfamiliar, a 5k is 3.1 miles.  A half marathon is 13.1 miles.

My 5k, was today.  It was a Color Vibe 5k and thinking that it was only 3.1 miles, I knew I had it in the bag.  One thing I didn't really think much about was where I live and what kind of terrain I'd be running on today.  It was pretty much a trail run which I am not accustomed to.  However, it gave me a glimpse of what my half marathon will be like in August.  In some ways, today's run made me think I was hiking while running.  There were large rocks and roots protruding here and there, and had I been in a car, I might have put my hazards on.  As I approached each color station, I held my breath *which while running is extremely difficult* so that I didn't get color blasted in my mouth.  When all was said and done, I'd burned just shy of 500 calories in my 40 minute 5k.  Average pace = 12:54 min./mi.  For someone who isn't used to trail running and doing some serious hills *24 floors according to my fitbit*...this pace is amazing for me!

With that said, I will most definitely be starting with the walkers at the half marathon in August.  I'm still questioning my sanity in signing up for one.  Again, it's a huge leap out of my comfort zone, but I love that I am continually being challenged.

What have you done lately to get you out of your comfort zone?  Are you challenging yourself?

Saturday, April 27, 2013

Too Long!

Hi friends!  It's been nearly 2 months since I blogged anything.  Shameful really.  I've let my thoughts slide for a bit too long.

Here's the skinny on what's been going on here.  I've been OP (on plan) according to WW, but haven't been eating the right things.  This makes me feel quite yucky to be honest.  I'm just now realizing this, crazy huh?  I feel better when I eat a sensible breakfast, a snack, a green salad loaded up with protein and veggies for lunch, another snack, a sensible dinner, and possibly another snack...all before 7pm.  Please also realize that with three children, I am often up when the sun comes up.  Here in AZ right now, it's before six!  Except for this morning when I had the coffee pot programmed to go off at 6 *yes, I'm drinking half caff again* and got up because everyone has been getting up around that time, and here it is *7am* and my children are still in bed!!!  Eh, I'm enjoying the quiet of the morning and my coffee.

In that I am eating what I should, my energy is back and I feel pretty good.  It's interesting to see how making sure that you're eating the good stuff can change the way you feel.  In that I'm training for a half marathon, I am trying to be sure that I'm eating plenty of protein and healthy carbs.  I'm doing a cross between a 'runners diet' and phase 2 of South Beach.

**Hark!  7:02 and I hear the first sounds of girlies!**

Between those two, I feel satisfied all day and I feel like I can last through at least bed time with the girls.  So that's where I'm at.  I need to look back at my goals for the year too.  I'll have to do another review here pretty soon.

And a few new things we've been making/using:  milk kefir and 1% ricotta.  I made my first batch of ricotta yesterday and it's really good!  We've been using milk kefir for a month or more and the girls love having a kefir smoothie *not to mention it's good for them!*

I hope you all are hanging in there.  Or at least trying to!

Tuesday, March 5, 2013

Back At It-Day 2

I think completely blowing it, has really helped me to see the bigger picture.  I have had such tight control over this particular area in my life that I think I needed this 'fall' to let go just a little and refocus on what is most important.  Just staying healthy.

Today was a busy day.  My morning was spent buying our monthly groceries, getting them home, putting them away, and separating meat for the freezer.  I needed to get into town and back in time for my hubby to be to work.  I left for town around 7:30.  With that thought in mind, I grabbed a 'quick' breakfast = a granola bar and some water.

When I got home, I was starving.  Instead of grabbing something terrible, I grabbed a bowl of granola *are sensing a theme here so far?* and milk to tide me over until lunch.

Lunch = 2c lettuce, 1oz fat free feta cheese, 1 radish, 1/2 of a green onion, 2 tbsp of sunflower seeds, some cucumber and zucchini all tossed with 2 tbsp of light raspberry vinaigrette.  I also had 2 tbsp of peanut butter.

Snacks = yogurt and an apple.

Dinner = turkey and veggie meatloaf, 1/2 c quinoa, and a salad.

The girls helped me make some tasty muffins.  I'm choosing not to have one tonight.  I might have tomorrow.  I am going to make overnight buckwheat groats for breakfast tomorrow and I'll have some egg whites to go with it.

If you've already seen my meals, then ignore this, but it helps me to write it all down.  :)

Monday, March 4, 2013

I Fell

I'm going to be honest with you my readers.  I think this has been lurking for quite some time and while I have had some serious splurges in the past, I've never splurged so much that I couldn't 'account' for what I ate.

I fell off the wagon last night.  Once off the wagon, I got dragged along behind it and was hitting some substantial rocks that were protruding from the path.  I have prided myself in the last *almost* 2 1/2 years for staying 'on plan'.  That means: counting everything and staying within my points/calories for any given day/week.  Now, I've said to you all...count everything and move on.  I will say that I counted everything, but to remain 'on plan' I had to stay within my points/calories.  I didn't do that.  It isn't pretty, but I'm being honest here.

With that said, I promised my hubby that I would get back on the wagon this morning.  And, I have.

I think that sometimes we have past hurts...current hurts that fester.  They finally caught up with me.  Hubby and I had a chance to sit down and really talk last night.  I even had a chance to talk with hubby's best friend which was also a breath of fresh air.  I think my head has been slowly sinking below the water line to that dangerous drowning stage and talking candidly with his friend and with him, allowed my head to pop up above the water line for some much needed air.

I haven't given up.  I truly haven't.  The path was just a bit bumpy and it threw me out of the wagon.

So far today:

buckwheat groats
stevia for sweetening
pure pumpkin

On the menu for the rest of the day:
salad for lunch
fish for dinner

Purpose of all this?  To let you all know, I'm human too.  We all hit bumps in the road, but we need to get up, dust ourselves off, and get back on.  Hang in there friends!

Tuesday, February 12, 2013

Valentine's Day--Be Kind To Yourself!

I *semi-recently* talked about saving yourself.  This post will piggy back that one.  Now that we're approaching Valentine's Day, I want you not to think about the chocolates that abound during this time of year *especially as we approach Easter*.  Did I mention that I saw Cadbury eggs at the grocery store when I went shopping last week?  Sheesh!  I digress.

Let's think of some things that will show that you love yourself *again...don't go thinking that I'm talking about being self-absorbed or selfish*.

Here we go...a list of things to show that you love yourself:

  1. Eating healthy food options.
  2. Eat proper food portions of said healthy food options *even healthy food can be 'abused.'*
  3. Move your buns in a fashion that will cause your heart rate to be raised in such a way that you might expend some calories.
  4. Drink plenty of water.
  5. Get plenty of rest *aka sleep*.
  6. Pamper yourself from time to time *this is more for the ladies...give yourself a pedicure or have one done; manicure; hair cut; take a hot bubble bath w/ candles lit in a safe manner; a new outfit to show off the evidence of loving yourself through #1-5.*
  7. Don't deprive yourself of a little something from time to time (ie: *a* piece of chocolate, but if it will cause you to stumble, don't try it yet)
  8. Spend some time doing something you enjoy.  Maybe you enjoy crocheting, reading a good book, crafting, or baking.  Make sure it's something you enjoy.
What are some ways that you can 'love' yourself?  *I probably could also say 'be kind to yourself.'*  

Friday, January 25, 2013

Coffee or Tea?

Or neither?

As with everything else in my food journey, I've had to come to some hard realizations.  One of them being with my coffee.  I love my coffee.  The problem with my coffee is that I love a nice flavored creamer and sugar in it.  I love it to the point that I've had 3 cups in the morning and then for a 'sweet' something in the afternoon, I'll brew some decaf and have 3 more cups.  What I'm saying is that I could potentially drink an entire pot of coffee in a day...even if it isn't all regular.

So for the sake of saving myself calories/points for other more nutritional food stuffs, I decided to go strictly to tea.  Here lies a benefit to tea...less caffeine.  I also thought that I'd drink tea on the mornings when my hubby isn't home *which can be 5 days a week* and then have my coffee with him on the mornings he's home. 

Ha. Ha. Ha.

Picture this...I've gone nearly a week without coffee.  Hubby is home *yay for coffee!* so I brew it up.  I have my 'normal' 3 cups with the fixins.  What a horribly bad idea this was!  Within a half hour or so of finishing my last cup, I started in to 'the shakes.'  Then I felt nauseous and my heart felt like it was racing.  I ended up laying down on the couch for a few minutes to let it subside.  What an awful feeling that was!

My conclusion?  No more coffee.  Period.

Well...except for the occasional decaf or half caff.  I did get a half caff latte at the coffee shop this week and had no ill effects.

So now, I have this thing for flavored teas.  I haven't really become my own tea store, but it may get to that point.  My favorites right now are:  Bigelow Vanilla Chai, Bigelow Green Tea w/ Blueberry, Bigelow Constant Comment *both regular and decaf*, Celestial Seasonings Honey Vanilla Chamomile, Celestial Seasonings Sleepytime Vanilla, and Celestial Seasonings Honey Lemon Ginseng Green Tea.

It appears that I am partial to these two brands at the moment.  The blueberry is so smooth, you'd never know you were drinking tea!  Also, I'm drinking just two cups in the morning and I'm not adding a bunch of stuff to it either.  I may throw in another cup in the afternoon or evening, but it usually is a decaf something or other.

And, believe it or not, tea is healthier for you.  Here is one article that talks about the benefits of tea.  And here is another article that describe a few different benefits to tea *some are the same*.  I'm sure you could continue to look for articles that talk about it.  I googled 'benefits to drinking tea.'  Have at!

But Kati, I love my coffee.  I can't live without it.  I get it.  Boy, do I get it.  But, I'll give anything a go for more than a week if it means I'll be healthier for it.  If you aren't a tea drinker, then maybe this idea isn't for you.  Again, just my ramblings on a cold and rainy night...whilst I drink a cup of hot Sleepytime Vanilla tea *which is also very tasty by the way*.

If you struggle with the amount of coffee you consume in a day...maybe it's time to switch it up.

Monday, January 21, 2013

Life Saver

I had this odd thought as I was out walking today.  I passed our fire station here in town *or at least one of them* and it hit me!  The people who work at that fire station save lives, land, homes, etc.  And no, that's not what hit me.

If you have children and if they were in a life threatening situation, would you do everything in your power to save them?

If you don't have children, but you do have pets and they were in a life threatening situation, would you do everything in your power to save them?

Okay, so you don't have children or a pet, but you have a husband/wife/significant other, sister, brother, cousin, aunt, uncle...or something of great value...that was is in a dire situation, would you do everything in your power to save them/it?

Where am I going with this?

Firefighters, paramedics, doctors, EMTs, nurses, police officers, you and me...we're all in the business of saving lives.

How is this possible you may ask?  I don't have the proper training.  Oh, but you do!

You need to be about the business of saving your own life and maybe a few others along the way.  What I mean is that you are responsible for changing your food modification, getting out and exercising moving your backside, and doing what you need to do to make you a healthier you.  If you don't change these things now, you aren't the life saver that you are meant to be.

And what is that expression they say on a flight?  If there is a loss in cabin pressure, put your mask on first and then assist others.  You need to help yourself first, get yourself healthy, and then help others.  You definitely need to reach out to others for their support in your journey, but don't lose sight of who you need to help first.


**Note:  I'm not saying that you should be selfish or self absorbed, but focus on the baby steps you need to take to make you a healthier you.

Friday, January 18, 2013

Approval Seeking

Are you the type of person who seeks approval?  What I mean is, do you look to other people (family, friends, coworkers) for their approval?  Or are you the type of person who doesn't care what other people think?  You've done your time of worrying about what others think, and now, you can say without a care, "The heck with them!"

I have often been that approval seeker.  I have been the one who looks to her husband, *sometimes* children, parents, grandparents, sister, and friends...almost in the desire for validation.  I guess...more often than not, I am the seeker.  On the flip side, I am more than willing to give encouragement, a compliment, or become the one who gives validation *because I know all to well that we need a little validity in our lives.*

For quite some time, I thought that I drove people away because of my weight.  My excessive size made me feel awkward around others.  When I was pregnant, I didn't feel like the cute pregnant girl.  I did a lot of hiding or sitting in the corner.  I felt as though I couldn't 'keep up' or share the same outlook on life.  My life never seemed to mesh with others and the approval that I sought was never found.

Now that I am my leaner self, running 3-4 times a week, fitting in other healthy activities, and eating better, I still often feel as though I drive people away.  I feel as though they think that I'm watching them, that I'm watching what they eat or what they put on their plate.  To be honest, when I'm at a 'food function', I'm more concerned about what I'm putting on my plate than what others are doing for themselves.  And if my girls are with me, I'm also wrangling them.

I'm trying to move myself toward the not worrying about what others think phase of life.

Have you ever successfully transitioned from a seeker to one who is unaffected? If you have, do you have any tips?

If you've never been a seeker, how do you keep from worrying about what others think?

And lastly, if you are a seeker like me, I feel ya.  It's a hard place to be!

One last thought, you are who you are.  You are loved no matter what.  There should be no conditions to the love that others have for you.

Just.  Be.  You.

Wednesday, January 16, 2013


...or not.

There is this person in my life that I love very dearly.  A whole bunch.  And let's just say that this person wants to get healthy.  This person's doctor is holding them accountable.  As in, the doctor wants to see them again in 3 months.  That's some pretty serious accountability, no?  This person has said that they really need to do it this time.  I hear it over and over again.  They want to be in the best shape of their life by the time they hit 40.  That's just 3 years away.

Over the past couple of days, I've become very aware of the types of things this person is still eating.  And how much.  I've caught myself saying, "Hey!  Get out of that!"  Last night, I told this person that they might want to consider logging their food, as they reached for a 'before bed snack' after a hearty dinner.  I got a resounding NO!!!

It's so hard to back off and not say anything when someone you love tells you that they want to get healthy, but you feel as though they aren't watching their food intake.  And, I know that if I keep 'badgering' them, that it won't help a lick.  It's hard when we've been in this place before and it's the same cycle.  There has to be a break in the cycle someplace, right?

So what am I going to do?  I'm going to pull out a large roll of tape and use it on my mouth.  Again, I need to remember my earlier comment about the horse and the water.  On a side note, I seem to remember a time when I tried to 'help' with something else *math related* and that just made this same person frustrated.  Maybe it's a, "I don't need your help.  I got this!"

So here are some questions to ponder:

When do you give in and ask for help? 

When is enough...enough?

Monday, January 14, 2013

My Heart's Desire

I may get a little soap box-ish, so if you're afraid...walk away now.


My Monday morning study is reading a new book.  We're only 3 chapters in, but I know that it is speaking to me.  I know that the author is my voice in some ways too.  The book is called Winning the Food Fight and it's written by Steve Willis.  Again, I don't receive any money by talking about his book nor am I looking for anything in doing so.

When I started writing this blog, I felt the desire to help people, to reach people who don't necessarily live near me.  I couldn't put my finger on the full reason as to why I felt compelled to start this.  Steve says in Winning the Food Fight, "You feel a righteous indignation that is compelled by love.  You have to do something.  You may not be sure what, but by God's grace, you will act." (p. 58)

Ding, ding, ding!  That's it exactly!!

And, in case you thought I am being all 'righteous'...I'm not.  It's righteous indignation, which is:   retribution, retributive justice; anger and contempt combined with a feeling that it is one's right to feel that way; anger without guilt (according to  To me, it's more about frustration that is compelled by love.

I'm frustrated because I can't help more than I am.  I'm frustrated because I can lead a horse to water, but I can't force it to drink.

I can't proclaim that I know everything there is to know about weight loss.  I've said it before, but it is worth repeating...what works/has worked for me, won't always necessarily work for you *or someone else.*  What it comes down to is you finding what works best for you.  Do I sound a bit like a broken record?  Good!

You will never know if you can succeed, unless you try.  Again, Steve says, "...defeat in the mind usually precedes defeat in the body.  If we are going to change our diet* and exercise habits, we must first be convinced in our hearts and minds that we need to change."  Winning the Food Fight, (p. 55)

That little * by diet is my own doing.  The word diet is just wrong.  So rather than saying diet, let's say food modification or food alteration.  Really what we need to be doing is modifying how we're eating now.  Right?  Baby steps here people.  I'm not saying you need to overhaul your complete menu...just tweak it a little.

And, backing up a little to the last part of that quote.  It's what I said a couple of posts ago, your mind and heart need to be in it in order to succeed.  Truly.  There's no other way to do it.

I'm anxious to see what more I learn.  Steve says that if I have an itch to help, that I just need to keep reading.

Sunday, January 13, 2013

I've Been Challenged!

It's happened!  I've been challenged!  So, if you've been a consistent reader *or somewhat consistent* then you'll know that I walked/ran 500+ miles between June and December of this past year.  A friend of mine has now challenged me to get twice that!  And, since I got 500 in 7 months, I'm going to need to step up my game.

In my usual fashion, I have updated my ticker on the side to reflect what I've gotten done.  In order to accomplish this goal, I will need to walk/run approximately 83 miles per month.  That tells me that I can't slack.  I've been pretty diligent about at least walking on my off running days.  If you see my times/mileage for my walking days, they're not nearly as pretty as my running days.  And that's okay with me.  The idea of my off days is that I'm doing a lighter workout, not as intense.  I've also gotten back into doing some strength training too.  I still need to firm up those jiggly parts.

Now for your challenge...what can you do to challenge yourself in the way of exercise?  Can you commit to getting yourself moving at least 3 days a week?  Can you walk for 20 minutes 4 days a week?  I'm not going to give you mileage, but you need to find something that will challenge you.

We are also now *basically* two weeks into the new year.  What goals are you working on?  Maybe you've picked just one goal to work on for now and that's okay.  Have you dedicated yourself to drinking more water?  Are you trying to eat smaller portions?  Reevaluate where you are at and make sure that you are able to do that one thing well before committing to another goal.  I've said it before and I'll say it again, sometimes when we try to do everything well all at the same time, we become overwhelmed.  When we become overwhelmed, we jump ship.  We derail.  Don't let that be you!

Keep at it friends.  Let each day bring you closer to your goal!

Wednesday, January 2, 2013


I wanted to get this out. 

There are some people who need or choose to have 'the surgery.'  What I mean by this is that they have surgery to help them lose weight.  This comes in two forms that I am familiar with...the Lap Band and gastric bypass.  The first puts a band around the stomach to essentially make your stomach smaller and keep you from eating more than is necessary.  This seems a bit less invasive.  The latter is much more drastic.  I know a couple of people who have had it done.

These gals have done this *one or the other* as a seemingly last resort.  I think it can absolutely work for those who have the right mind-set.  On the other hand, it can backfire *like any food modification program* if your emotional health isn't addressed too.  I have said time and time again that if your mind-set isn't focused and ready to take on the difficulties of a food battle, you will unfortunately sadly fail.

I'm speaking from my heart here.  I want people to know that while surgery is something I would consider a 'quick fix' for your body, it doesn't 'fix' your emotional state.  Only you can fix your emotional state.  No one else.  Not your mom, dad, sister, brother, cousin, aunt, uncle, children, spouse, friend or significant other.  You.  Only you.  And at the off-chance of sounding and God.

One last plug.  We read a book in my book study called "Made to Crave" by Lysa TerKeurst.  No, I don't get any money for raving about her book, but I really enjoyed it!  It goes after your heartstrings.  And, it's funny!  I often imagine that my baby carrots are a bowl full of Cheetos, but I know Lysa thinks of them in a different way.

Pick something to work on this week...just one thing.  Drinking more water.  Getting in some exercise time.  Whatever it may be and do it.  And do it well!

Tuesday, January 1, 2013

Happy New Year!

It's a new year!  It's 2013!!  We're now 19ish hours in and it has been a pretty great day.  Why do I say that it was a pretty great day?  I made some tasty things for us to eat for breakfast.  I made a beautiful loaf of 100% whole wheat bread *with fresh milled flour*. 

The most important thing I did today *aside from taking care of my children and keeping my house in order*?  My friend and I completed the Commitment Day 5k.  Now, we don't live anywhere near the large cities that were listed on the main page, but we decided to give it a go here.  We were hoping for a few other folks, but it was just she and I.  We ran her route about a week ago and it was a bit difficult.  Today, we ran it and it felt so great that I suggested that we keep going.  She called me a brat.  True story.  But, she suggested that we take 'another loop'.  And...we did! was awesome!  And...I sprinted at the end.!!

Our pace was slower today, but we pulled in 4.96 miles *let's just say a nice even 5*.  Of course, that included a 5 minute warm up and 4 minutes of a cool down.  There is something else that was great.  I usually take a day off in-between my runs, but I didn't want to abandon my day yesterday in part because it was my 20th day for a challenge that I was a part of.  Regardless of my two days in a row, I don't feel overly spent.  I'm not sure how my friend feels not that she's had some down time.

So here it is, the evening of the 1st and I'm feeling excited about the month...and the year.  We have two birthdays coming up this month.  One, I'm not allowing to happen *completely teasing our daughter about this.*  I've told her she's not allowed to turn double digits.  With that in mind, I am looking forward to making their cakes and celebrating their lives!

Get moving friends!  It's a new year and time to make your goals a reality!