Tuesday, March 5, 2013

Back At It-Day 2

I think completely blowing it, has really helped me to see the bigger picture.  I have had such tight control over this particular area in my life that I think I needed this 'fall' to let go just a little and refocus on what is most important.  Just staying healthy.

Today was a busy day.  My morning was spent buying our monthly groceries, getting them home, putting them away, and separating meat for the freezer.  I needed to get into town and back in time for my hubby to be to work.  I left for town around 7:30.  With that thought in mind, I grabbed a 'quick' breakfast = a granola bar and some water.

When I got home, I was starving.  Instead of grabbing something terrible, I grabbed a bowl of granola *are sensing a theme here so far?* and milk to tide me over until lunch.

Lunch = 2c lettuce, 1oz fat free feta cheese, 1 radish, 1/2 of a green onion, 2 tbsp of sunflower seeds, some cucumber and zucchini all tossed with 2 tbsp of light raspberry vinaigrette.  I also had 2 tbsp of peanut butter.

Snacks = yogurt and an apple.

Dinner = turkey and veggie meatloaf, 1/2 c quinoa, and a salad.

The girls helped me make some tasty muffins.  I'm choosing not to have one tonight.  I might have tomorrow.  I am going to make overnight buckwheat groats for breakfast tomorrow and I'll have some egg whites to go with it.

If you've already seen my meals, then ignore this, but it helps me to write it all down.  :)

Monday, March 4, 2013

I Fell

I'm going to be honest with you my readers.  I think this has been lurking for quite some time and while I have had some serious splurges in the past, I've never splurged so much that I couldn't 'account' for what I ate.

I fell off the wagon last night.  Once off the wagon, I got dragged along behind it and was hitting some substantial rocks that were protruding from the path.  I have prided myself in the last *almost* 2 1/2 years for staying 'on plan'.  That means: counting everything and staying within my points/calories for any given day/week.  Now, I've said to you all...count everything and move on.  I will say that I counted everything, but to remain 'on plan' I had to stay within my points/calories.  I didn't do that.  It isn't pretty, but I'm being honest here.

With that said, I promised my hubby that I would get back on the wagon this morning.  And, I have.

I think that sometimes we have past hurts...current hurts that fester.  They finally caught up with me.  Hubby and I had a chance to sit down and really talk last night.  I even had a chance to talk with hubby's best friend which was also a breath of fresh air.  I think my head has been slowly sinking below the water line to that dangerous drowning stage and talking candidly with his friend and with him, allowed my head to pop up above the water line for some much needed air.

I haven't given up.  I truly haven't.  The path was just a bit bumpy and it threw me out of the wagon.

So far today:

buckwheat groats
stevia for sweetening
pure pumpkin

On the menu for the rest of the day:
salad for lunch
fish for dinner

Purpose of all this?  To let you all know, I'm human too.  We all hit bumps in the road, but we need to get up, dust ourselves off, and get back on.  Hang in there friends!